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Oh dear that was a fail of a weekend.  I decided to go to Greenbelt tis year a Christian arts and music festival over the August bank holiday.  I suppose I'm still trying to balance my spritual life that's been part of my life for as long as I can remember with my queer and Pagan identities which are starting to come to the fore in my interests again.

Was it worth it.  Um no.  FIrst of all I expected better from the christian youth of today then the bullying louts I found.  So after a day of no sleep and rain I packed up and came back to Scotland.  I've spent the last couple of days in a kind of shock really.  Finally chilling out though now.

The other problrm with the event was it was too damn large, too many people.  So not sure what I think about my faith.  I doubt I'll every totally leave the church behind, but neither do I want to loose things like shamanic drumming from my life.  So I'll continue to live the contradiction as I have for a long time.  I'm happy in the grey

So back to work today which was a bit of a struggle, but I'm getting on and doing some washing and tidying.  WOrk is going though some changes, but my work will stay pretty much the same for the moment and is secure.

No word on the Sheffield job, so need to make sure that I keep busy over the winter in Perth/Glasgow.  Any job search will not be till next year.