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Let me put thatlittle rant in some context, because this is as much about the pressure I put on myself. 6 years ago I'd worked for my employer in Sheffield for about a decade.
I was pretty much trusted to handle my work and get on with it whilst letting my team leader do the client facing stuff. I did a lot of technical stuff, some of it quite hard and all self taught.
I was on shit money compared to industry averages. Inevitably the recruitment agencies came calling and I did some interviews. I decided that I could start fresh without all the baggage of past behaviours, oddities and sheer prejudice that I've faced. So job in Leeds. Ha well, that worked out so well. followed by a couple of months unemployed, which frankly drove me to the edge of despair.
I took the job in Scotland. However you do not escape yourself that easily and I've had years of people complaining about odd behaviour, personal higene, failure to engage with people. None of it said to my face, all done to team leaders or behind my back. At one point I was forced to "apologise" to two of the most miserable sour faced people in that office. I forget why now, probably I was trying to tell them how to do things correctly.
So now I sit in the corner of the room on the tech team. There are two of us. The work I do contributes massively to the office, it's appreciated by those who matter and by the team leader who I mentioned last time. They've even tried to get me an extra pay raise, but that is now with national management and I don't hold my breath.
A year ago I was off work with stress for a couple of weeks and was barely functional for about three months.
Now? I'm doing a hell of a lot at work, badly structured though it is by management. I'm moving house in Perth to anew rented flat. I spend my days adhering to cultural norms because frankly it causes to much bother not to, but I don't want praise for it as frankly it's the same pile of crock I've been dealing with since I was 9 or probably younger.
You know I feel a new blog coming on. Don't worry you won't have to read it here, but If you do I'll tell you where it'll be when I'm ready to go.
Right since I move on the 18th I really ahd better sort my stuff out!
I was pretty much trusted to handle my work and get on with it whilst letting my team leader do the client facing stuff. I did a lot of technical stuff, some of it quite hard and all self taught.
I was on shit money compared to industry averages. Inevitably the recruitment agencies came calling and I did some interviews. I decided that I could start fresh without all the baggage of past behaviours, oddities and sheer prejudice that I've faced. So job in Leeds. Ha well, that worked out so well. followed by a couple of months unemployed, which frankly drove me to the edge of despair.
I took the job in Scotland. However you do not escape yourself that easily and I've had years of people complaining about odd behaviour, personal higene, failure to engage with people. None of it said to my face, all done to team leaders or behind my back. At one point I was forced to "apologise" to two of the most miserable sour faced people in that office. I forget why now, probably I was trying to tell them how to do things correctly.
So now I sit in the corner of the room on the tech team. There are two of us. The work I do contributes massively to the office, it's appreciated by those who matter and by the team leader who I mentioned last time. They've even tried to get me an extra pay raise, but that is now with national management and I don't hold my breath.
A year ago I was off work with stress for a couple of weeks and was barely functional for about three months.
Now? I'm doing a hell of a lot at work, badly structured though it is by management. I'm moving house in Perth to anew rented flat. I spend my days adhering to cultural norms because frankly it causes to much bother not to, but I don't want praise for it as frankly it's the same pile of crock I've been dealing with since I was 9 or probably younger.
You know I feel a new blog coming on. Don't worry you won't have to read it here, but If you do I'll tell you where it'll be when I'm ready to go.
Right since I move on the 18th I really ahd better sort my stuff out!
