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rhino_neilIt's early on a Wednesday, cold as this April has been, but the low sun paints a glow. Warmer later as well if I believe the BBC.
So week 5 off work. Five weeks off work. Anxiety, panic attacks, call it what you will. Yesterday started happy, awakem then I had to call work, talk to GP talk to HR nad I was a wreck. One good start to the day doesn't equal well. Even a few days.
What will I do? I'll do my morning exercises and go for a short walk and listen to the "On Being with Krista Tippett" podcast. I think I'll read and go for a longer walk when the day warms. Later in the day I suspect that "Repair Shop" and "Great British Sewing Bee" will engage me. I keep trying to figure out what is wrong, what can I fix, can I go back to work.
I don't know the answers. Maybe it's best I just let go. Oh, that. just writing "Maybe it's best I just let go" gives such an emotional response like a big life event.
Can't ignore that can we?
So week 5 off work. Five weeks off work. Anxiety, panic attacks, call it what you will. Yesterday started happy, awakem then I had to call work, talk to GP talk to HR nad I was a wreck. One good start to the day doesn't equal well. Even a few days.
What will I do? I'll do my morning exercises and go for a short walk and listen to the "On Being with Krista Tippett" podcast. I think I'll read and go for a longer walk when the day warms. Later in the day I suspect that "Repair Shop" and "Great British Sewing Bee" will engage me. I keep trying to figure out what is wrong, what can I fix, can I go back to work.
I don't know the answers. Maybe it's best I just let go. Oh, that. just writing "Maybe it's best I just let go" gives such an emotional response like a big life event.
Can't ignore that can we?
