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rhino_neil) wrote2023-04-04 09:52 pm
rhino_neil) wrote2023-04-04 09:52 pm
employed week 1
so 10 weeks of unemployment.
I've been ill, depressed under medical supervision, on anti depressants and on watch for suicidal thoughts.
My CV went to 5 jobs and I got 5 interviews and 1 offer. Techncally I started this week, but due to tech issues, I start after Easter next Tuesday. I started today stomach churning and fearful, but after an hours indeuction and overview of the training course I feel fine.
Lets repeat that, I feel fine. OK I'm being paid to sit on my arse without using holiday days, but I feel fine. I don't know when I last felt like this. I've been depressed, tired, worried, scraping by, manic, drunk.
Today, I did my induction session, did some more sorting out of the flat, talked to two friends, read, went accross Sheffield to buy fish and chips.
I have my l9fe in SHEFFILED COMING SLOWLY TOGETHER. I see bits of the future I certainly see this summer.and no holidays until after 11 weeks of training, but hey. I'm content bordering on happy. This is what I've aimed for and planned for. I intend to enjoy every damn day I can.
I've been ill, depressed under medical supervision, on anti depressants and on watch for suicidal thoughts.
My CV went to 5 jobs and I got 5 interviews and 1 offer. Techncally I started this week, but due to tech issues, I start after Easter next Tuesday. I started today stomach churning and fearful, but after an hours indeuction and overview of the training course I feel fine.
Lets repeat that, I feel fine. OK I'm being paid to sit on my arse without using holiday days, but I feel fine. I don't know when I last felt like this. I've been depressed, tired, worried, scraping by, manic, drunk.
Today, I did my induction session, did some more sorting out of the flat, talked to two friends, read, went accross Sheffield to buy fish and chips.
I have my l9fe in SHEFFILED COMING SLOWLY TOGETHER. I see bits of the future I certainly see this summer.and no holidays until after 11 weeks of training, but hey. I'm content bordering on happy. This is what I've aimed for and planned for. I intend to enjoy every damn day I can.